Oh goodness, I have not written for my blog in such a long time. I have so many different things to share with the world. When I first started TheWhittiest a year and a half ago, it was source for me to publicly vent and share my viewpoints, and I’m sure it will serve that same purpose; however, there is something different about me. One of my mentors told me that the growth that I am to experience through college would be exponential—each chapter I will have not only a deeper understanding of the world, but myself.
Well, to begin with the brief update, I will start like this:
School/Work/Career—School has improved; however, my grades have not in particular (they stayed about the same). I know that does not make much sense, but let me explain. My understanding of the material and the “system” is much greater than before. My love and passion for knowledge has grown deeper, and lastly, I have found where I am ought to be and focus my career on—it turned out to be the last place I was looking, but God works in mysterious ways. I’m looking forward to the next 8/10 years career wise—I don’t think it’ll be anything that I planned, but it will definitely be exactly what I ought to do. I don’t want to say anything about it until it manifests itself, but as soon as it does, I’m sure the entire world will know my plans J.
Friendships—my friendships are so much better. Prayer is the reason for this. One thing I have accepted is that people aren’t perfect (learning and accepting are totally two different things). I’ve accepted my faults and the faults in others, and I have celebrated the greatness in others as well as myself. Friendship is incredibly sweet, and it’s definitely a gift from God.
Relationships—I find the greatest mistake that people make is that people do stuff to get to the next level—talk on the phone so they can hurry up and date. People quickly date…to well, you know, get in a relationship. Everything is in such fast pace, and I was definitely a participant. Al Green has a song that was remade by Corinne Bailey Rae called “Take Your Time.” I said I was taking my time, but I really wasn’t. I was so eagar to get to the next level that I wasn’t enjoying or loving the way I ought to have been. Things are just sweeter because I’m taking my time, and I’m definitely avoiding more disappointments due to being a better judge of character and worth. Before, I wanted several dates to get to know someone… now, I wouldn’t mind a lifetime.
God—I thank God for finding me; giving me the wisdom and peace that I have. All I can say is my worship is probably most transparent that it has ever been. I’m working on an active relationship with God, and beginning to listen to his voice and guidance. I’m getting to where He would like me to be, and although I have such a long way to go, I know that God will carry me on my way. My faith has grown and my creed is even more developed. Someone last year told me that people should know what you stand for within minutes of speaking with you. It is still work in progress—I’m still work in progress—but I do know who I am and what I stand for, and God is at the very core of my being.
I feel as if I make some of the same mistakes but they are far and few in between. I am loving differently; more unconditionally and with greater wisdom. I don’t put myself out as much and I’m more protective of my heart and cautious with my decisions. I still consider myself a free spirit, but I am a free spirit with greater direction and control.
Life is still life. Depression comes; tribulations exist. Life still has such dramatic turns and twist, but now I am more in control. I’ve learned how to show people how I want to be treated, and to only accept what ought to be. At each level and moment of growth of life, there will be something to come and try to knock you out, but it’s really is how you react and come back from those times that make all the difference. Today’s blog is full of clichés and things one should already know at 22 years of age—but there’s a difference. The things I’ve learned, I’m applying and accepting, and I am at peace and happier than I’ve been ever.
So 2012 is a better year, and I am definitely a better Whitney.
Until next time-
